101 Ways for 101 Days

One of my favorite poems is "Sonnet 43" by Elizabeth Barrett Browning. It's short, but the first lines of the poem are famous: "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways..." (to read the sonnet in its beautiful entirety, click here).

Today marks 101 days until the wedding. I love doing top 10 lists, but I couldn't narrow it down to that few! So, to countdown 101 days, here are one hundred and one ways I love Joshua Scott Glazier...

101. His desire for adventure
100. The ways he has made me more adventurous
99. The way he loves me even though I am not as adventurous as him
98. The way he smiles at my attempts to be adventurous
97. The way we can have fun together doing anything
96. The funny faces he makes when taking pictures
95. His sense of humor
94. The fun he brings to everything he does
93. His love of airplanes
92. The noise he makes when he sees an airplane
91. His giddy excitement when talking about airplanes
90. His laugh
89. His smile
88. The joy in his eyes when he smiles
87. The joy in my eyes seeing him smile
86. The fact we don't always have to smile with each other
85. The way he loves me when I'm not smiling
84. The way he can be honest with me when things are hard
83. The way he respects my vulnerability when things are hard for me
82. The way he makes it easy to respect him as a man
81. The way I respect him anyway
80. The way our love grows when he loves me sweetly and I respect him openly
79. The way he loves me for my strengths
78. The way he loves me for my not-as-serious strengths
77. The way I love him with my English-major abilities
76. The way he sweetly asks me to edit his papers
75. The way I love to serve him in that way
74. The way he loves my nerdy-ness

73. The countless books on his bookshelf

72. His countless collection of movies

71. His obsession to alphabetize and categorize his books and movies

70. His love of Glee

69. The way he's not ashamed to let everyone know that he loves Glee

68. The way he sings along to the radio (and Glee) when he thinks no one is listening

67. The way he gets embarrassed when he finds out I was listening

66. The silly look on his face when I tell him there's no reason to be embarrassed

65. The fact that he's still embarrassed anyway 

64. The way he does things just to bug me

63. The joy he gets from bugging me

62. His laugh when he knows he's bugging me

61. The fact that he thinks bugging me is funny

60. The twisted way he loves to get "in trouble"

59. The fact that when he's "in trouble" he knows he's bugging me

58. The way he butters up to me after he gets "in trouble"

57. The way I melt like butter to that face of his

57. The way he loves to put butter on everything

56. The way he still eats my cooking, even when it's healthy

55. The way he likes my cooking, even when it's healthy

54. The way he cooks for me

53. The way he cleans for me

52. The way he serves me because of how much I serve him

51. The way we can serve each other

50. That he allows me to cook and clean for him
49. That he loves my cooking so much
48. His honesty
47. His integrity
46. His strength
45. His courage
44. His honor
43. His love of the Lord
42. The power of his prayers
41. The power of our prayers together
40. The power of his love
39. The depth of his love
38. His love of many things
37. His love of gadgets and electronics
36. His love of guns
35. His desire to have guns
34. His desire to protect me
33. His desire to make sure I'm safe
32. His desire to make sure I'm provided for
31. His desire to have a family
30. His desire to provide for that family
29. His desire to grow old with me
28. The way he calls me old already
27. The way I call him old in return
26. The way we bicker like an old married couple
25. The way we love each other despite our bickering
24. The way we can see each other's faults
23. The way we can love whole-heartedly despite those faults
22. The way love covers a multitude of sins
21. The way he looks at me
20. The way I get butterflies when he looks at me
19. His persistent attitude when I refused to date him
18. His honest charm that made it so hard for me to refuse him
17. His desire to do whatever it took to impress me
16. His desire to do whatever it took to make "us" work
15. The great story of how we started dating
14. The sweet circumstances of our first kiss
13. The effort he put into making our relationship work
12. How our relationship grew over three years and great distances
11. How we continue to grow closer to one another
10. The wonderful way he prosed
9. His impeccable taste in jewelry
8. His commitment to love me no matter what
7. His love of life
6. His love of my family
5. His dedication to his family
4. His dedication to serve this country
3. His dedication to serve me
2. His dedication to serve the Lord
1. I love the way he is who he is... Joshua Scott Glazier. I love you.

Remind Me

A good question. Still searching for the answer today.
"Tell me once again who I am to You.."



"When I lose My way,
And I forget my name,
Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see,
Is who I don't wanna be,
Remind me who I am.
In the lonliest places,
When I can't remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to you.
Who I am to you.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to you.
That I belong to you.
To you.

When my heart is like a stone,
And I'm running far from home,
Remind me who I am.
When I can't recieve your love,
Afraid I'll never be enough,

Remind me who I am.
If I'm your beloved,
Can you help me believe it.

Tell me once again who I am to you.
Who I am to you, Woh.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to you.
That I belong to you.
To you.

I'm the one you love,
I'm the one you love,
That will be enough,
I'm the one you love.

Tell me once again who I am to you.
Who I am to you.
Tell me lest I forget who I am to you.
That I belong to you, Woh.
To you."

NCIS Makes My Life Better

NCIS makes my life better. Really. That may sound funny, but I promise it makes sense. When things are hard, when I am frustrated, when I am upset, I love watching NCIS because it puts my life in perspective. Watching episodes where people die horrible deaths, have shoots-outs with terrorists, get stalked by psycho-criminals, solve peculiar murders, and drink way to many caf-pow's, the problems and situations in my life look so much better in comparison. 

Since becoming engaged, I have been dealing with the jewelry repair center in frustration as I have been fighting to get my ring fixed, and properly. I went to go pick it up today, but it still wasn't done. It was 3 weeks late, was sloppily made, and took 3 times (and hopefully just three) to get it fixed. So I was really bummed when I saw with my own eyes, that it still wasn't done. I know it's small, but my hopes of finally having my ring back after a month were dashed. 

So on my way home all I wanted to do was watch NCIS, because I knew I needed some perspective. My roommates once quoted me saying (during my awful job-searching days), "My life really isn't too bad. My husband wasn't murdered and I wasn't shot today!" 

So many things can give us perspective, and even though NCIS may not be the most beneficial and encouraging, it definitely makes me grateful that those shows don't mirror my everyday life! Prayer, in addition to NCIS, helped me realize that dealing with an imperfect engagement ring isn't the end of the world. It's isn't even the end of the marriage that hasn't even started yet. At the end of the day, it's just a ring, and so many things are more important. And realizing that makes my life better. NCIS just helps in the process... :)

The pits in my ring :(

Filling Our Life with Furniture

Josh and I just made our first purchase together... We bought a couch! Not any ordinary couch, but a cheap (yet nice quality) loveseat from a local classified ad. I even measured my car and made sure it would fit. However, I didn't measure how far my back swing door would open. We huffed and puffed and stuffed, but it made it home a little differently. This sums up our experience:

Loveseat bought through a classified ad: $25

Measuring tape to make sure it would fit in the back of my car: $2

Rope to secure the door closed (just in case): $8.37

Gas to drive the 27.2 miles roundtrip: $2.89

Amusement from the looks we got as we drove 13.6 miles home with a couch almost as big as my car strapped creatively on my roof-rack: PRICELESS.

But we have our very own couch! And it helps that I really like it too. And I am so glad we decided to buy that rope just in case and that Josh knows how to creatively jimmy-rig! I can't wait til Josh can move into his apartment (that will be our apartment in 122 days) and we can fill it with more stuff! But for the time being it is in my little living room where it looks massive! But I love our new loveseat and I love that Josh and I are at the stage where we can be buying things not just for my life or his life, but for our life together.